.and the pavements.

i can't concentrate
on
anything.

i've just been watching
south park
and
fucking around on
facebook.

at the end of the
day
i'm just so tired
and want my
mind
to go
blank.

i don't want to watch movies
(and i
always
want to watch movies)
or read
(although i
devoured deathly hollows in a
weekend.
there are rows
and rows
of people reading it on the subway
young
old
everyone, i recognize
that grey and yellow cover and jacket
so easily
stupid muggles who don't understand)

but i feel like shit.
like a blob.
and last week
was so great
and i keep thinking about it
instead of trying to be it
instead of living,
i'm replaying.

how frustrating.
stupid subway.